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time, oh how it flies...

i havent updated this bad boy in quite a while, so here it goes...well well the month is currently November, and if you think about it we only got Decemeber and the year 2009 is over...i can honestly say this is one of my worse yet best years of my life, i know i have said time and time again that i have found and lost people, but what really matters is who they are.

Either i have changed for the better or not, i am happy with who i am right now, sure i might have messed up in the past and now they are biting me in the ass for my mistakes that i have done, but the whole point is that its a mistake and there is nothing that can be fixed over time.

the thing that has impacted me the most is my family and friends, i have found out the truth about some very personal things that i have never known till present day and my whole outlook has changed, and every little piece of information is given to me it all becomes so clear on some actions that my mom has taken in the past.

As for friends, i dont know what has happened, to our group which was so close, now its as if we just are friends, instead of best homies, i remember how it was when we would be like family, now its like we dont even really exist to each other so to speak.

she keeps me sane♥

i have come to accept, all the things im going through is just a part of life, maybe some people will learn it the same way, maybe they will have it a lot easier, but the way i look at it and the way i live everyday gives me motivation to do better in school, i dont want my children to have to go through the things i am now, such as always counting down the days till i get paid, having to hear parents fight every afternoon, worrying about how parents will be taken care of in the future, not having the power to choose if their parents stay together or not, no child requests to be brought to this world, so if youre going to have one, dont put it though a horrible lifestyle....

ok this post was just a lot of random stuff that i needed to get off my chest, it might just sound like random rambling to some people but to others it might not, well i feel a lot better now that i have atlesat told somebody else rather than myself, its getting kinda late, so im going to flop on the bed and KO eventually till next time. good bye


Craig ♥ Kimberly