for as long as i can remember ive been one of the more "chill people of the group'' that was up until the end of my senior year in highschool, i had the world going the way i wanted to, getting good grades, awesome friends, family was finally calming down, and what i thought was a faithful girl. i used to just sit back and relax when she would ask me if she could go and have fun, i thought meh a little fun what can it hurt? little did i know the answer was me. everything was going good till the study abroad program came up that following summer. so i thought oh cool what a great opportunity for her shes so lucky, so i bid her a farewell and off she went to china. i used to stay up till 3 talk for 15 mins and then wake up 6 for another 15 mins, she roomed with two guys who were pretty close, then she talked to me about going clubbing and having fun, oh sure go ahead, what could it hurt right?.....wrong.... she went clubbing, and in her words her friend "regulated" the guys...yyeeaahh rriigghhtt, then they all went to kareoke and they started to have some drinks, and some more and some more...thats when my first insecurity issues became big and noticeable after she cheated on me, but i was like she was fucked up, in more than one way, maybe i could put that behind me and keep it moving, well that worked for a while, till i got lied too, lied to my face...
and now i always have the thoughts of what if, but i need to open up my small little asian eyes and see i have a good and faithful girl who isnt going to hurt me, and that has a life, i just dont need to be in it or talking to her 24/7 365, everyone needs their
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