another night

hello folks, just doing my daily update, err i try to but sometimes im slip up, im only human =P, anyway just chillin at work, till tonight there might be a little beer ponging going on, but who knows we'll see, this job isnt so bad =), id much rather be here than home, id probably be doing the same thing at home right now, so hey, why not make aome money along with it right? well anyway the weather has been extremely hot, business has been at a snails pace, and no new shipments of clothes =(...we gotta wait and see how things go i guess..

at times when im at home i feel like, she only puts up with me, because she needs my help, to get daily activities done, she was talking to me about my sister eaier in the week, and she just said, "yeah your sister moved out as soon as she could", and i can kinda see why now, i wouldnt mind talking to my mom, but she needs to think of some new subjects or things to say, always the same thing over and over, its like you said that already and its getting really annoying, i feel like its kinda unfair to me, i do want to move out as in present time like right now, i wouldnt mind moving out with a couple of friends or hell on my own, but im unable to cos of my mom, so in a way, im stuck, and i DONT want to live with her for the rest of my life, its like shes keeping tabs on me with whatever i do, im already 20 years old, she needs to start treating me like i am, i mean ill admit i have said some mean things, but i dont say them cos im a dick, i say them because it gets to the point where this is beggening to be too much for me to handle, i want to live life now while i still can and have fun, and yes i do that, but in the back of my mind i still have that thought about my mom... all she does is complain about her knee, i mean i get the point, it bugs you and it hurts and it must be hell not being able to walk normal or bend down, but she brings the pain upon herself, such as og ill mop the floor, or ill clean the sink, or ill sit down and wash the tub, then when i come home im already tired from work or from school, and all i hear about is oh my knee this oh my knee that, its so frusturating, sometimes i feel like telling her to shut the eff up about your damn knee, its not my fault you didnt go to college and had to work a manual labor job and we all know youre not the most physically fit person on this earth, the doctor told her to go on a diet and lose weight for her knee so there wont be so much pressure on it, but she just ignores his advice and eats whatever whenever...while we are on the topic of food, after work she always has me go get something, sometimes i just want to go straight home,