sit and think

as I sit here wit the sun shining in my face, and the time I have here to be alone, my friends give me an instant message on aim, seems like the only thing going on these days is heart break, do they not know how it feels to have their hearts broken someone that they really did like? with that being said, it makes me wonder about the background that they have come out of or the way that the parents have taught them to care for others and the type of people they hang arouund with, just because someone is taller, or cuter, or maybe has a way with words, doesn't mean that he or she will necessarily love you more or treat you better than your current significant other, yeah I mean at the beggining it seems like a dream or a fairytale you never want to end or never want to want to wake up that its so good, but just wait till a problem arises and you guys end up in a fight or disagreement, one of the most important things in a realtionship is communication and the willingness of both people to work it out and compromise. the one that also ties for first in my book is trust, I mean everyone is entitled to get jelous or uneasy with people your boyfriend ot girlfriend hang around with I mean its natural, but you need to think, ok they haven't done anything to break the trust that I have for them but I know that it is a lot easier said than done. I mean I'm speaking from expirience on the whole communication and trust part, I've learned it the hard way from the past. if anyone, no matter who it is whether it be your mom, or megan fox, or shoot even orlando bloom for you ladies, if they try to change you, then why be with them? it just means that they are not with you for who you really are deep down inside, believe me I've changed but now I'm the real me the real mccoy the real deal, the real craig steven sakuma, somewhere along the way somebody made me forget who I really was, and what was important in my life, which is friends and family. I know I may have seemed like I went on and on about bad trust issues or bad communication, I know that this will never happen to me again, she has changed me back to who I really am, she has brought me up to this point and I don't see any signs of stopping, she means everything to me, and I love her!


craig <3 kim